Monday, May 31, 2010

Duelo - Grief

Ando haciendo el duelo de algunas de las personas que podría haber sido, pero decidí no ser. No me arrepiento de quien me volví, pero a veces extraño esas otras mujeres que no soy. Desearía cada tanto poder hacerles un lugarcito en mi vida en lugar de matarlas, pero puede ser que esto sencillamente no sea posible.

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I'm grieving for some of the persons I could have been, but decided not to be. I don't regret who I became, but some times I miss those other women I am not. I wish I could make some space in my life to be them every once in a while instead of killing them, but maybe this is just not possible.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Futuro - Future

Siempre he sentido nostalgia por el futuro. No extraño el pasado, sino un tiempo mejor que vendrá, en el que soy más libre y estoy en paz. No espero por él; el momento espera por mí allá adelante. Por eso avanzo… y mejor me apuro.

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I’ve always felt nostalgia for the future. I do not miss the past, but a better time that will come, in which I am a freer and I am at peace. I’m not waiting for it; that moment is waiting for me ahead. That’s why I move forward… and I better keep up.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Pensamientos al Azar - Random Thoughts

El azar es escencial para la vida.
La genética es azaroza.
La diversidad fortalece la especie.
Cuanto más diversa la genética, más posibilidades de supervivencia.
La vida no es clasificable.
Lo que alguna vez fue inmoral es lo que determina el progreso.
Lo que se adhiere a lo establecido está destinado a morir.
Algunas personas son genéticamente progresistas, porque son atraídas por otros diferentes. Gracias a ellas, nos mezclamos. De ellas depende la evolución de nuestra especie..

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Randomness is essential for life.
Genetics is random.
Diversity strengthen the species.
The more diverse the genetics, the more the possibilities of survival.
Life is not classifiable.
What once was immoral is what determines progress.
What agrees with the establishment is destined to die.
Some people are genetically progressive, because they are attracted to those who are different. Thanks to them, we mix. The evolution of our species depends on them.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Secretos - Secrets

Me gustan los secretos. No los que te digo a vos y vos le contás a ella y ella a él y luego de un tiempo dejan de ser secretos; los que se mantienen secretos.

Dos personas compartiendo un secreto ya son suficiente. No tiene que ser un pedazo importante de información detallada acerca de vos o de mí, puede ser simplemente cómo me miraste aquella vez cuando por una fracción de segundo fuimos testigos de que algo especial estaba sucediendo. Siempre y cuando no se desparrame, o sea olvidado, o usado para manipulación, ese secreto nos acercará más uno al otro.

Particularmente disfruto los secretos que son sólo míos, los que nunca han salido de mí. Esos son tesoros escondidos bien protegidos. Es cierto que la idea de no compartirlos a veces me hace sentir un poco sola, pero saber que nadie puede acceder a ellos sin mi consentimiento me hace sentir entera. Ni una disección de mi cerebro ni una tortura invasiva podría descubrirlos jamás. Esos secretos son quién soy.

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I like secrets. Not the ones that I tell you and you tell her and she tells him and after a while are not secrets anymore; real secrets that stay secret.

Two people sharing a secret are already enough. It doesn’t have to be an important piece of detailed information about you or about me, it can be just how you looked at me once when for a fraction of second we both witnessed that something special was happening. As long as it doesn’t spread, or it is forgotten, or it is used for manipulation, that secret will bring us closer.

I particularly enjoy the secrets that are only mine, that never got out of me. Those are well protected hidden treasures. It’s true that the idea of not sharing them might feel kind of lonely some times, but knowing that no one can access without my consent makes me feel whole. No dissection of my brain, no invasive torture would ever uncover them. Those secrets are who I am.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Belleza - Beauty

Lo bello nos llama la atención y captura nuestro interés, y por eso el arte es tan importante. Es un milagro confirmar cuántos de nosotros respondemos a lo bello, particularmente porque siendo completamente inexplicable aun así nos hace detenernos admirados, dejándonos conmover y conectar el uno con el otro. Ser testigo de esto me da esperanza. Me inspira a seguir haciendo lo que hago.

La belleza nos despierta. Si ella no salva a la humanidad, nada lo hará.

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Beauty calls to our attention and captures our interest, and that’s why art is so important. It is a miracle to confirm how many of us respond to what's beautiful, particularly because it is completely inexplicable yet it still makes us stand in awe letting ourselves be moved and connect to one another. Witnessing this reaction gives me hope. It inspires me to keep doing what I do.

Beauty awakens us. If she doesn't save the human kind, nothing will.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Alien

De vez en cuando me siento como si hubiera sido arrojada aquí, en este planeta, y luego abandonada. No estoy segura de dónde me trajeron, pero lo que es claro es que soy una total alienígena. Desorientada. Discapacitada. Imposibilitada para entender cosas básicas alrededor mío o para decodificar los símbolos que veo; anonadada por las enigmáticas actividades en que estos seres extraños llamados humanos -con quienes no siento ningun vínculo- funcionan diariamente. Una rara e incomprensible civilización a la cual tengo el presentimiento que nunca podré adaptarme. Afortunadamente para mí, esto sólo me sucede de vez en cuando.

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Every once in a while, I feel like I was thrown here, in this planet, and then abandoned. I am not sure where they brought me from, but what is clear is that I am a complete alien. Disoriented. Disable. Unable to understand basic things around me or to decode the symbols I see; overwhelmed by the enigmatic activities in which these strange beings called human -with whom I can't relate at all- function daily. A weird and unintelligible civilization to which I have the feeling I'll never be able to adapt. Fortunately for me, this just happens every once in a while.

Tambor - Drum

Mi corazón es un tambor al que toca un tamborilerito. Sus manos mantienen el tempo y a mi vida le dan ritmo.

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My heart is a drum and a little drummer plays it. His hands give rhythm to my life and keep the beat steady.

Sueño - Dream

Quiero dormirme y amarte en un sueño, quien sea que sos y de donde sea que venís, como sea que nos conocimos y cuando sea posible.

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I want to sleep and love you in a dream, whoever you are and wherever you come from, however we met and whenever it's possible.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Dolor - Ache

Me duele el cuerpo por lo que quiere y mi mente no quiere hacer. Me duele el corazón por lo que desea y mi mente ha decidido no buscar.

Si hago lo que mi cuerpo pide... ¿me dolerá el corazón? No lo creo. Si sigo los deseos de mi corazón... ¿sufrirá mi cuerpo? Seguro que no.

No soy una democracia; mi razón es una tiranía.

¿Se rebelarán alguna vez mi cuerpo y mi corazón? ¿Lo harán por medio de una apasionado levantamiento o un doloroso derramamiento de sangre? El fin, ¿justificará el conflicto o será simplemente un vergonzoso e improductivo acto de venganza?

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My body aches for what it wants to do and my mind doesn't want to do. My heart aches for what it desires and my mind has decided not to follow.

If I do what my body asks... will my heart ache? I do not think so. If I follow my heart's desires... will my body suffer? I'm sure not.

I am not a democracy; my reason is a tyrant.

Will my body and my heart ever rebel against it? Will it be through a passionate uprising or a painful bloodshed? Will the end justify the conflict or will it be just a shameful and unproductive act of vengeance?

Monday, May 3, 2010

Against

I’m against pain unless it’s necessary to create life or to learn a lesson of survival; I’m against dying young unless that’s really what somebody wished for themselves; I’m against little dogs barking with a high pitch; I’m against having sex unwillingly and I’m against not having it when I want it; I’m against heartbreak; I’m against setting the alarm clock and I’m against waking up from a wonderful dream; I’m against feeling hungry or unsatisfied in any of my other physiological needs; I’m against not following one’s desires; I’m against social mandates; I’m against dressing up for a party I don’t want to go to; I’m against bride’s white gowns and definitely against tuxedos; I’m against high hills and ties; I’m against corsets and any kind of undergarment with wires; I’m against Valentine’s Day and Women’s Day; I’m against engagement rings and wedding rings and I’m against becoming “Mrs. Someone” once I'm married; I'm against plastic flowers; I'm against porn; I’m against advertisement and I’m against seeing women’s breast and butts virtually everywhere; I’m against silence in the museums; I’m against art that doesn’t say anything; I’m against elitism; I’m against schools not having colorful walls; I’m against the smell of hospitals; I’m against rain for more than a week and I’m against not having rain for months; I’m against feeling sick; I’m against flakey friends; I’m against married friends setting up dates for single friends; I’m against online dating services; I’m against bullshit; I’m against disappointment and deception; I’m against having to smile when I want to cry; I’m against feeling pressure and I’m against stress; I’m against owing money to the bank; I’m against private property and I’m against a monetary system; I’m against not having enough; I’m against not being good enough; I’m against feeling ugly; I’m against anyone who makes me feel like an idiot; I’m against being ignored; I’m against having to make sense; I’m against psychological manipulation; I’m against dogmatic thinking; I’m against not making questions and I’m against needing to have all the answers; I’m against slow internet connection; I’m against “this service is not available at the moment, try again later, sorry for the inconveniences”; I’m against security checkpoints; I’m against fast food and fast cars; I’m against flying on a plane; I’m against grownups hitting children and husbands hitting their wives; I’m against judging people by their appearance; I’m against being expected to behave like a lady; fuck, I’m against not using bad words; I’m against you snoring if you're sleeping beside me; I’m against getting completely wasted and I’m against hangover; I’m against the music being so loud I have to scream to have a conversation; I’m against the AC being too damn high; I’m against losing precious memories; I'm against sweating too much except when I'm sick, working out, or having crazy sex; I’m against anti-age cream; I’m against small apartments and I’m against huge mansions; I’m against disparity and discrimination; by all means I’m against war; I'm against prison; I'm against slavery and any kind of human exploitation; I’m against cancer; I’m against being rewarded for kissing ass and being punished for speaking up; I’m against unfair laws and any kind of torture or violence; I'm against obedience and against punishment; I’m against misunderstandings and wrong conclusions; I’m against not having passion but I’m also against obsession; I’m against arrogant pricks; I’m against long guitar solos; I’m against people not having any sense of rhythm; I’m against singing out of tune; I’m against Hawaiian shirts; I’m against leopard tights and gold shoes matching a gold purse; I’m against too much jewelry and too much makeup; I’m against being too normal; I’m against not having imagination; I’m against friends not showing up for my birthday party; I’m against not hearing “and you?” after I asked “how are you?”; I’m against not returning calls; I’m against sharing my dessert; I’m against cakes with artificial colors and flavors; I’m against microwave cooking; I’m against people who don’t know but teach; I’m against arbitrary rules and prohibitions and I’m against not being able to make an exception; I’m against filling out forms; I’m against strict classifications; I’m against narrow minded public office employees; I’m against being stopped by the police and I’m against having to have a police at all; I’m against borders; I’m against casinos; I’m against having to pay for basic needs like water, food, housing, health and education; I’m against abandonment; I’m against bombs and fire arms of any kind; I’m against hunting for sports; I’m against being competitive and always wanting to win; I’m against not looking at the moon when it’s up there; I’m against being inside on a sunny day; I’m against not having vacations in the summer; I’m against having my period when I go to the beach; I’m against hair removal; I’m against fake blondes and fake boobs; I’m against anorexic models; I’m against rock stars and movie stars; I’m against authority in general; I’m against birds shitting right on my head and I’m against stepping on dog’s poop; I’m against waiting in line, particularly for the ladies’ toilette when the men’s room is empty; I’m against waiting too long to order food when I'm hungry and I’m definitely against the waiter asking me if everything tastes good every five minutes; I’m against having to tip when service wasn’t that good; I’m against being asked for my ID to buy alcohol, tobacco, spray paint or glue; I’m against a power outage; I’m against being chased in a nightmare; I’m against following a strict plan; I’m against having fear; I’m against feeling sad; I’m against being powerless; I’m against talking too much when there’s really nothing more to say.